today

today is better just venting out what was on my mind yesterday really helped thanks to those who are so supportive

Things in 3s Dont look at post if things trigger you easily

They say things happen in 3s warning if you trigger easily dont read this cause its not pretty over all im doing ok but grief has a way of coming and going when one least expects it my fatherinlaw that i loved dearly died in july it wasnt too bad holding it together and being strong for my family then in september my grandfather died it was his time he lived a long good life and for the last year he has been miserable and living as a shell of who he was so although ill miss him greatly im happy for him at the same time that he isnt in pain anymore he isnt trapped in a body that will not function God is good and i know pop is with him and fixing things there much as he did on earth then this week number 3 comes along and it has brought all that grief all the upset that i had been keeping in check and the balance i had and it has thrown it out the proverbial window one of my very very good friends lost her 22 yr old son this week in a car wreck not only has her pain been horrid we have all be effected by it at work he graduated from our school in 04 He was a wonderful young man one of the strongest christian i know he wasnt one that just gave lip sinc to his faith he lived and breathed it. he left behind a wife and a 10 month old baby the wife was like 19 and her birthday was thursday but he had already bought her a present and his mom dug in his truck and found it still intact so she was able to give it to the wife all this is just dragging up all the pain of losses and it also brings up that it could have been my husband, my child i dont know why but this has been really hard on me hard to shake hard to let by i cant even coherently write this blog post well to anyone who has read thsi thanks for putting up with my rambling i feel better putting it down on "paper" so to speak.

wow

ok time goes on but really fast. In the last couple of months we have gotten moved, burried my grandfather, moved more stuff in from his house, and can't seem to find a set routine except leave home early (6:30) every morning for work get home at 5:30 or later every night after waiting on kido at cheer pratice or staying for ball games to watch her cheer. It has been fun. Football season is about over now we move into basket ball. Over all things here are going well just tyring and very little time to be online.