a thoght

ok how does one blog about what is going on in them when their brain is running in so many different directions that it is impossible to complete a train of thought.

Well long time no write seems that I forget I have this spot to write when things are going well. Stress the last couple of days has really been high and I am glad there is this spot to write. Hubby's mom has been having some dementia issues and spent some time in the hospital. Friday he brought her home with him. She is actually doing very well but the uncertainty of what is going to go on is hard for me to deal with. We have some dr appointments lined up this week for her. One of them is with my old therapist. Depending on what he and the medical dr. says we may be having her live with us the rest of her life or she may be in a nursing home. She is only 68. Sort of wish I could have a session with the therapist. He is the only person I have ever been able to open up and really work through things with. This stuff with hubby's mom has me feeling very small and such but on the outside I'm the one who is having to be strong and fix her food and tell her how to shower and that sort of thing. Tonight I just want to curl up and hide. I have that feeling I use to get of hiding behind a mask to the people I come in contact with when inside things are slipping all over the place. At least that feeling is recognizable, guess that makes it better than before. Well shall see how things go maybe I won't forget about this good spot for emotions to go.